Tuesday, December 21, 2010

A Whole Year...

I haven't posted for a few days. It's been a busy time: I had my birthday last Thursday (which was nice - I started a post about it but never finished, perhaps I will some time), and I've been getting ready for tomorrow, and Christmas.

Tomorrow, it will be one year since Sam left us so suddenly. I can't believe how quickly the time has passed. I still have moments of not believing; of thinking he'll walk through the door any moment. I know he won't, but something keeps me wishing.

I thought I'd be more upset, but I guess it's just me. I'm sad - no more or less than I was before, but I'm not crying much (still). We'll see how it is tomorrow.

Right from the start, I vowed that I would not wallow in grief. I would allow myself to be sad, but I would honour Sam's memory by being positive.
I think I've done that pretty well, and I feel good for it. I think it's helped the people around me too. It doesn't mean that I have lots left to help others through their own grief/problems, but it has meant that we can remember Sam in positive ways.

Tomorrow will be no different. We have invited people over - anyone who remembers Sam and would like to spend some time sharing memories. I've called it 'Celebrating Sam Day', and it will hopefully be full of good food (I've got together some Sam favourites - he did like food!); great company and good memories.

I do plan to write about it at some point. Bear with me for a couple of days, because I've got to work Thursday and Friday, and then it's Christmas. I'll post about the day when I can.

Before I go though, I wanted to thank you once again, dear readers. As you know, this blog has been an important part of my journey through grief, and I have been blessed to have your support along the way. I don't know where my blog will go from here, but I do know I'd like to keep writing it. I hope you'll stay with me.

Thanks again. 


  1. Please don't stop writing Mel, I love reading about your view of the world. Hopefully one day our paths will cross - maybe at a Living End concert? I'm thinking of you all today. Sue E.

  2. xoxoxo X a milion!!!! Laura and Phill

  3. don't stop writing. x x x x x

  4. Mel's Dad/Sam's GrandadDecember 22, 2010 at 10:16 AM

    Dear Mel,
    You are right, it has helped the people around you, and Mum and I have been better for it, knowing you have coped in the way you have. With so much else happening around us all, it hasn't been easy, but made easier by your positive attitude. Sam's light is still shining in all of us.
    Luv, Dad

  5. Lovely words Gordon.......from Laura

  6. Please keep writing! I love your words xx

    Enjoy today ;-)

  7. wow.. a year has gone by...
    Hope the day was as good as it could be for you and your family.


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