Tuesday, April 13, 2010

Just smile and wave boys....

The robbed that smiles, steals something from the thief. ~William Shakespeare, Othello

I have always been one of those 'happy people'. You know, the ones that people tend to smile with but occasionally find very irritating?
When I was younger, my condition was far worse. In my late teens and early twenties I was especially annoying. But, if I wasn't smiling (for any reason), people would immediately ask 'what's wrong?' and make a comment about how I was always smiling.

I did manage to tame my unsuppressed happiness somewhat as I grew older. All the horrors of becoming an adult wore me down a little, but while I was not as 'out there' as before, I was still considered happy by most people I know.

I had always preferred it that way, thinking that it was better to go through each day smiling and enjoying life than always be grouching and moping. I was even known to grumble about people that never smiled, in fact I actually find it difficult to trust or warm to people who never smile.
I have had some pretty tough times over the years, but my attitude seemed to help me get through some of it. I was still known for my optimistic and happy demeanor I guess, but hopefully I wasn't annoying people too much.

I guess my kids liked it too. In 2008 I contracted pneumonia and had to spend a heck of a lot of time in bed. Samuel made this card for me:
The best part was the message on the inside:I was sometimes a grumpy mum, but on the whole I like to think that the attitude I kept for the rest of my life was the same I had with my kids. They were (are) pretty happy-go-lucky themselves.

I must say I have done OK at keeping my optimistic and happy personality going, despite this horrible thing that has happened. I wrote about this earlier, and still feel a little guilty for smiling or laughing, but at the same time I still don't see any point moping through the day.
I still find it difficult to trust the non-smilers, but now I understand there might be a reason.

I'm edited this to add an observation: I've just got back from work where I was my usual talkative, somewhat loud and jolly self. I was thinking about that in relation to my earlier post, and part of me thinks that some of this behaviour is a 'front'. I think I've written about it before, but perhaps I don't want everyone to see how sad I am, so I cover it up with loudness. It's like the other problem I have - my low self-esteem and worries about my weight mean that I eat more (go figure!).


  1. you are so lucky you kept these things. I often think of all the 'crap' that lucy produces at preschool etc and I should keep it.

    (not that the card was crap, by no means, but you know what I mean, kids can produce forests full of stuff!!!)

  2. Hi Mel

    Thinking and smiling with you...Kent

  3. Thanks guys, and yes, I do know how much they can produce!

  4. I must say my memories of seeing you were also non-stop smiles.

    I think the last time I saw you may have been on the pink party bus one night, and happier than anyone else there and everyone was celebrating something!

    The thing about smiling and being happy, even if a front for yourself, is how it makes others around feel. Such attitudes to life can rub off so easily onto others, even if only for a moment.


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